A Piece of Mind

i love spaghetti

sooo  much..

i dunno when it starts

and i dunno when will it ends

today i ate a lot of spaghetti

which iman cook for her office-mate

1 bowl, 2 bowls, 3, 4, 5..hahaha

not all in once, of course

bcz it is a "product-quality testing"

Have u heard IPQC? in-line product quality control

so it’s like Quality Assurance kind of thing

i love to put hirisan batang saderi ( dunno wat it called in english) - learn frm chua

but iman put a lot of mushroom ( the button one and ano species, i dunno)

its ok, as long as it still taste good

i learn to eat spaghetti with cheese from Chua

and today i learn dat we can add another 2 things for the spaghetti

basil leaves..for the spaghetti ( after boiling, filter, one another hot pot: put some margarine and spaghetti and sprinkle with basil leaves)

paprica…for the sauce ( name je glamor, padahal serbuk cili jer)

when i was studying in campus,

i love to cook spaghetti for my friends

in my own conventional cooker ( i brought it to mahallat illegitimately)

i love to see their happy face when we eat together

when i was working in gsk,

i cook spaghetti for my last day too

i call it spaghetty party, charging RM 1.50 each,

hehheee..nothing is free in this world, ok ( even nak masuk toilet pon kene byr)

we : me, ainu, midi, diba, camelia, ida, sham gather in the round table at d cafe

too bad, amirul can’t taste it bcz he’s rushing 4 friday prayers

and too bad also, dat i totally forgot to save him any portion

tak ade rezeki lol, next tym bro!

in short,

i miss all those sweet times, with me, friends n spaghetti

okla, that’s all the story about me and spaghetti, b4 anything bad happen, i better go n siap2 to go out with my mom, i’m out…tut!

hari ni jer dh kene sound kt 2 kali

i don’t see ur point, mdm

kurang mengerti, barangkali

Apa perlu kita memilih orang untuk berrkomunikasi?

Apa wajar aku menuruti tanpa memahami?

Apa perlu menilik mental capablity seseorang in order to talk?

But y?

I can’t see the logics behind that

Y, mdm? would it cause trouble to me later?

Even if it is, how sure are u if pple with the right mental capabilities will not coz me the same trouble or might b even worst?

y can’t i just talk to anyone?

what kind of qualification or criteria need to b met b4 starting any conversation?

Truly,

I didnt see ur point mdm

y did i need to choose whom i should talk to?

y did i need to do that?

I need to understand your logics b4 i can follow ur command

Or maybe u mean, i should choose the content..

……….

kadangkala aku kurang faham dgn value dan prinsipmu

sedari kecil, aku cuma absorb values itu, menuruti dan cuba memahami

bila mencecah dewasa, aku mengutip "value" lain yg wujud di sekeliling

dan membentuk "value" ku yg tersendiri

this is a pic of patrick..

Life is about understanding others..

i’ve learnt a few good things from our class trip to johor, last weekend:

1. i need to learn to speak proper Bahasa Melayu, without any adulteration with English languange. Learn to explain to makcik2 at kampung or any public with lay-man terms.

This is one of the reason i salute Prof Tahir Azhar, Dean of Kuliyyah of Medicine, well-known cardiologist surgeon if not mistaken.

" The genious is the one who can explain complicated things to people in understandable language "

2. Everyone has their own values. Even if it doesnt seems to be significant, there still some values. One of my classmate mentioned to me:

" Semua orang best. The only thing is you have to explore them.."

Our last class trip to Johor was nice and sweet. We went to Nana’s house in Simpang Renggam and did Health Screening for the villagers. Huhu, even not many people came, we try to give our best service to everyone as much. Nice to know all these pakcik and makcik, they are so friendly. I managed to counsel a few patients. Hope that the good info penetrates their heart and soul Ameen, the minute amal jariah, that i can afford for time being.

On that nite, we went to Dataran Batu Pahat ( located in the heart of Batu Pahat, pokok penuh dgn lampu berkilau mcm diamond , hhihi..) Good times with classmates, when all adult turn to be 5 year old kids happily playing "futsal" and balloons, including me. We were jumping and running all around..weeeee..i’ll remember this moment till i grad.

Next day, we went to Tropical Village, Ayer hitam. Sakit pinggang aku, posing ngan budak2 kelas..huhu..semua tempat nak ambil. We went to all around the world in one day - Menara Pisa, Eiffel Tower, Pyramid Giza, Sleeping Budha, Hollywood..hahaa.giler la amek gambar, tk ingat..yeah, man-made park which hve lot’s of famous replica around the world..my first thought is that, the person who came with this idea and bought the land for this must have made good money@ return of investment..

Then, in the eve..we went to City Square, JB ( Johor Bharu)..and lastly Danga Bay. I met my cousin, Chai. Kesian dia kene blanja kitorang 3 org, nasibla kan..bila lagi nk pow org dh keje..ye ar, nanti aku kejer, blanja ko blk,k…hahaa..good times fly away so quicly..it’s now time to work hard..: ( making an intensive-daily and study-schedules today)

i got less than 3 weeks to educate myself..
10 classes to go..
1 admin assignment to pass up..
1 dormiciliary assignment to do..
2 more clinical attachment..

i’m cherishing every moment as much as i can..do help me, ya Allah. ameen.

since iiu kuantan didn’t hve official counselling dept, i guess i hve to counsel myself..

at this moment, i could say my motivation level is really low,- dangerous syndrome..so better to find way out..

hve tried to study since morning but can’t really focus, my mind wandered n i just could not study, y?

this eve, aftr hving good hot mocca ( 3 in 1 VICO + 3 in 1 gold roast coffee) ..i start

~ go thru al-mulk translation, read motivation bk@ my fav motivation bk " i was gifted, so r u" written by Adam Khoo..plus " Study Smarter and not harder"..

~ some pearls dat i’ve grabbed bout brain n neuro-connection..the more difficult the subject, more time u need to spend..n make urself trained..it’s just about time that ur brain is making neuro-connection b4 it’s become easy..simplified?

~ if u want to be smarter, u hve to let ur brain neuron-cells build connections, by thinking n re-thinking about the matter..so the more u get confused, the better, bcz ur brain is undergoing the process of generating those neuro-connection..simple saying; everything is hard before it bcome easy..

~ hmm, ok..enuff until now, n better go through my study material..

p.s : i missed those good old days in kusess..where i got to listen to tazkirah ev day, i.e. during kuliah maghrib ( although tend to b sleepy all d time, but at least manage to grab few pearls), or sunday’s kuliah subuh, words frm cikgu husni " food for ur soul@ pengisian rohani..at least ur heart doesn’t feel so empty..

ok, arafah..bak kata dedi, "study rajin2 lol, biar hasilnya bagus, ok!"

Blabbering on antivirus..

Huhu, even aku rasa macam poyo jer tulis kt blog psl antivirus, tp nk tulis gak, tk kire..

Lama giler dok kt lab comp ni, semata2 nak activate kapersky n scan labtop..i’m doing it seriously this time,..demi kesejahteraan pc ..

Huhu, aku still miss NOD32 aku..bencinyer, apsal la hilang tetibe..~ aku rase kapersky dh makan aku nyer nod32.., ye ar once install kapersky terus nod32 aku hilang…

Apsal aku suker sgt ngan nod32?

Pasal, once aku masuk thumbdrive terus dpt detect worm..sure ade kluar window worm is detected..then auto-scan , n die akan announce ur worm@ ..etc is successfully deleted..

Huhu,..kapersky ni tk bergaya langsung..even aku dh dekat satu jam aku scan computer..”no threat found”..cakap la dh delete ker aper ker.. bencinyer, aku nk balik nod 32 aku..waaaaaaaaaaaa…

~ luahan perasaan aku on anti-virus..sesape yg bace abaikan jer la ek, unless korunk bleh bagi aku balik nod32 aku tuh..huhu..pasrah, beb!

just came back to kuantan. a lot of thing to brush up. at last, reach my final semester!

hmm, as usual..not satisfied with past academic achievement. something really serious need to be done..

nothing can be done for the past. but something can be done for a better tomorrow.

may Allah bless me, always.

hidup ni mesti semangat, ok..

if tak semangat, takde maknanye la hidup ni.

banyak benda buat kita kecewa dlm hidup

tapi takkan nak teruskan  kekecewaan hidup dan hidup dalam kekecewaan? ~vicious cycle, nobody is going to get the benefit out of this..

ayuh, bangun dan pandang 1000km ke hadapan

hidup ini hadiah dari ya rabbi

everyday is a gift, man!

p.s. sorry, this is not about love.

pengajaran hari ini.

dengar kuliah, ustaz cerita pasal org yg bertaqwa kat surau permata:

1. org bertaqwa ni tegas, and tindakan dia bukan " sebab kasihan kat org". tak senang termakan pujukan dan tipu daya. not easily influenced la.

cth, if ade org ajak wat bnde2 tk btol, die xkan kata.." kasihan la u, ok, kita pergi.." or if ada org lelaki bkn mahram nk jabat tangan, we might say " sorry, my religion disallow me to shake hands with non-mahram" . mesti bertegas dgn pegangan kita.

tips frm a friend who went to dubai: if ada org lelaki non-mahram nak salam kita, letak tangan kanan kat bahu kiri and tunduk sikit sbg tanda hormat.

tips aku: korang wat jer cam org thailand/ hindustan greet, rapatkan dua tapak tangan and cakap "navaste" , haha..pastu explain la.takpon, bow sket cam org jepun tu.jgn smpai ruku’ sudah ar.

p/s: aku slalu ada prob ni time debate rounds. slalunye if aku xdpt nk avoid, aku salam jer ngan guys non-muslim especially in international debate. Lps dgr ustaz ckp mcm ni, aku rase ape la salahnye if kita explain kat depa ni, kasi diorang faham our religion.

2. org bertaqwa sntiasa ambil pengajaran dr perkara yg brlaku di sekelilingnya

3. menegur dgn tidak menunjukkan emosi. cth " saya tk marah, tapi saya tk suka.." ( berani menyatakan pendirian). meaning dakwah yg berhikmah. jangan buat org itu lari dari kita.mula2 biarkan dulu. perlahan2 baru tegur. bukan senang nk berubah, cz kita sndiri pon ambil masa nk berubah.

4. kalau tak pasti,tanya hati sendiri.if hati rasa tak kena, mesti ada sesuatu yg tk betul. jadi, tak payah buat.

today, we went to Teluk Chempedak, jalan2 wif Azimah, ct, k.amni n sari..huhu..with the bless of having a  "motorboat"..great! rm1 each..ehhehehe ~ by d way, since mama has already put new exhaust, so dh tk bising..hmm.. the "motorboat" terms not really applied..but wait till i get a good name for it.

Jalan-jalan di pantai this evening..

Best! watching the ripples..is it ombak? still hven’t figure it out..

berjalan di atas pasir, holding sandals…watching the wonderful scenery of the seaside..indahnya alam ini..saujana mata memandang beb!..drawing on the sand..hihi..apa yg ditulis? rahsia! mati aku, if org lain tau..

while happily taking pic, we saw one "mat-salleh" couple walking on d beach..i said," hi! how r u? "..dgn ramah sekali, the lady jawab…" apa khabar?kaba- kabar?.." hihi..geli hati betul..deep inside my heart.." bagusnya mereka ni, berusaha belajar bahasa melayu.."..

i shook hands with that lady.." where r u from? "..

" German".."owh..Guten Abend"..she was so happy..

then, the man wanted to shake hands with us..i was about to shake his hands..but azimah cepat-cepat ckp.." we can’t..sorry"..yeah, and the german lady seems to understand.." culture.." i thinks she’s trying to convey the msg to the man..

yeah..i wonder.." y can’t i do this in debate tournament? sometimes, i kno we just couldn’t avoid..but sometime, i feel it’s best to explain to others on our cultures..and make people understand us.."

next, we chat and chat..with very minute knowledge of Deutch Spache (German language) ~ thanks to foreign language education that i hve in KUSESS, these people seems so happy to hear their mother tongue spoken by malaysian..hmmm..tying to break the ice with some german expression.." Guten Abend ( spelling mistake?)..Guten Tag, Dunkeshen ( wrong spelling, i kno..but atleast it was pronounced dat way) ..yeah, learn dat german love to eat porks..Schweine..they even hve placed name after Shweine foot..yeah, they ate the leg of schweine, potatoes..n something that i can’t pronounce..we told them bout our malay cuisine, nasi lemak and persuade them to try those breakfast….wei, lemon grass tu serai ker? hahaa..apasal org tu ckp die makan nasi ngan lemon grass..ker banana leaves? tak paham btol..

then, i was holding a story book, "Tariq Ziyad- Novel Bersiri Pahlawan Islam"..n the man was asking about it..sebab dh lama tk converse in english..nk ckp pon tk reti,..plus. too bad, i haven’t read the book at all..bolehla, ckp die muslim warrior in spain..cis, aku sebenarnye nk ckp, Tariq ziyad adalah pahlawan islam yg berjaya menawan spain..tapi, forgot..perkataan menawan convert in english aper..hahaha..nasibla..i told you, language- if you don’t practice, it will turn back to zero..!